That old expression about 'wearing your heart on your sleeve'? You'll be living proof of it for at least one more day. You're not ordinarily the type to spout off and you don't enjoy it when it happens. It's tough for you to navigate this type of thing, but for now, why not indulge yourself? Invest in a box of kleenex. If you really want to go deep, play some billie holiday. If that doesn't do it, it's hard to say what will. Watching 'et,' maybe?